Tuesday, December 14, 2004
The very thought of playing lan still makes me drool at that very moment i start thinking of it. It is just a craving i have. It might be an addictation, it might be habituated. I don't know.
However, i do know 1 thing, i still long for it. There was a period of time when i would play lan everyweek for 3 hours. I don't know, it's just like taking drugs. I feel very hyped while playing it, and after playing it.
I reckon it's the violence that i lust after.
Because everyone knows the game CS aka Counter-Strike. Everyone knows that the whole idea of the game is to eliminate the opposing team. I think it's the bloodshed that draws me to this game. Because i know that i will never have the balls and energry to beat up someone in real life.
So i take it out in CS. I let it all out, and hence all the training, obviously one will get better and better. And i feel very perky or i'll laugh once after i kill someone. And i'll get annoyed once i get killed.
Maybe it's the violence that makes this game to popular.
Maybe it's the influence that everyone gives.
Maybe it's just fun.
Maybe it's addicative.
Whatever the reasons, i'm also drawn to it. I reckon it's the violence. However, at least i killed someone virtually and not physically. So, that's still ok.
It's an addiction that i cannot control!
>10:20 AM
Me.
PROFILE!
benjaminlow
16
regentsec
hockey
07091990
chc
w355
hardcoregamer
dotaaddict
slacker
daydreamer
loser
4/7
To Do list.
- to get wiser
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to get a new handphone cover for my 6100
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to have the guts to finally ask her
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to write the names on my new school books
- to speak better english
- to improve my written english
- to sleep in a CLB lesson.
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to learn how to play dota allstars
- to find more interesting things to write in my blog
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to get into the school's team
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to get top 10 in class for term 2
- to get top 10 in class for term 4
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to resolve everything with my peers
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to get that present for her
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to get that nokia 3230
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to start working at the counter
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to be good at operating the cashier
- to change my attitude towards life
- perfect being a total moron/jackass
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try being friendly towards jamie
- to make Mr. SeeToh break down in class
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to gear back to school life. again
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to tune myself back to the school's body clock
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to appreciate clocks - coldplay
- to laugh at lame jokes
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to get my mind straight
- to think properly
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to rid my nose all of pimples
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to get a handphone pouch
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to recieve that 128mb memory card
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to make my final considerations
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to read the list
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to complete my progress chart without any 3s(incomplete)
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to pass the chem test tomorrow (20-7-05)
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to get at least 2 As for my term 3 common test
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to learn to multi-task
- to appreciate being single
- to get better at dota
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to get 2 As for EOY exam 2005
- sleep at least before 12am everynight
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have lots of fun during the holidays
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try something new like - saving
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to watch 4 brothers, bewitched and stealth dvds
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learn to be more appreciative of others and of life
- get at least 15 points and below for o'levels
Wish List.
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to renew voice
- to get to heaven
- to be a better man
- to be smart
- to be rich
- to be successful in life
- to be respected
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to love
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to be loved
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to survive the working world
- to be able to be fly
- to sleep like a baby everynight
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to not regret months later
- to be able to manage my time better
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to have fun and work at the same time
Place of Interst.
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zoo
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esplanade
- clark quay
- escape theme park
- wild wild wet
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sentosa
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sakae sushi
- ice skating
- museum
- marina bay's curry chicken store
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giant
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singapore conference hall
- china town
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holland V
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my house. (:
